So if anyone is a regular reader of this blog, you’ve probably noticed that I have been MIA over the past few months. I know that bloggers don’t have to apologize for why they can’t write or don’t have time to write… I just want to come clean. Honestly, I’d love to blame Mercury Retrograde but it was stress. I was stressed out in a variety of aspects in my life and that resulted in a lack of creativity. I didn’t want to blog, pin, schedule, photograph or much of anything when I got home after work. And I felt alone in the process.
I didn’t want to admit to anyone accept for two people how much the stress was affecting me. I kept being told that things were happening to me. That it wasn’t just me creating stress on myself but that it was out of my control how much was going on. I had some trouble accepting that because historically I tend to put the blame on myself which can result in some negative self talk. Finally, I had a breakthrough last week (!) but at the start of the holiday weekend I kept finding things to be upset about. I couldn’t quite shake the stressed out mindset I had been used to over the past two months and all I could do was let it all out. Then I went to the beach. Not a bad treatment huh?
I guess what I am trying to say with this check-in is its okay to ask for help when you’re not feeling 100%. Whether its with friends, family or professional help, I find talking about my problems helps me get everything off my chest and I can try to figure out my plan of action to get better. I know its not going to be an easy journey, but I’ll push through like I usually do. Getting it all out on here has already taken a weight off my shoulders.